Saturday, December 29, 2012

Aw, Survey's like back in HS

Underline The Following of Which Relates To You

I've been arrested before.
I enjoy macaroni & cheese.
I don't like writing in blue ink.
I smoke camel crushes.
I think smoking cigarettes is gross.
I can see a salt shaker from where i'm sitting.
I do/did well in school.
I can be easily distracted at times.
I like word searches better than crosswords.
No one in my house smokes.
One of my family members has a problem with alcohol.
I've done something really stupid lately.
I live for the weekends.
The shirt I wore today had the color green in it.
I still love my ex.
I can't stand my ex.
Me & my ex are still friends.
My senior year was a breeze.
My boyfriend is taller than 5'9.
I always go for older guys.
but not that much older.
I recently ate at the olive garden.
I shop at payless.
I love drinking milk.
I shop at delias.
I buy clothes from sears too.
I've never eaten at the cheesecake factory.
Money on my mind...
Someone recently asked me out.
I rejected them.
I accepted... aww. =]
I don't eat many fried foods.
My itunes is currently open.
I wish I were older.
The legal drinking age where I live is 18.
I hate when people press the fuck you button on the phone.
I saw sex & the city 2.
I have really bad allergies.
What's a beat without bass?
V8 juice is yummy.
I have a blackberry.
I'm not on a laptop right now.
I'm currently waiting for someone to text me back.
They're taking forever.
I'm not on a diet right now.
But I should be.
I think about my boyfriend all the time.
Being single sucks.
It's tough being as cool as me.
I hate when people stare for soo long like wtf.
I wanna travel the world one day.
I know someone who is a professional body builder.
Sharks scare the hell out of me.
Deep water scares me too.
Speaking of water, I love water parks.
I had a cinnamon raisin bagel today.
I hate when a relationship ends & all of a sudden your ex seems ten times more attractive than they ever were.
I currently have weed on me.
or some other drug that i'd rather not reveal.
I've kissed an ex after we broke up.
I pay the insurance on my car.
Buying gas annoys me.
I recently got my taxes.
I can't wait for the 4th of july.
I've done a keg stand before.
I don't even know what that is.
I've slept with more than 4 people.
My house is creepy at night.
I'm not romantically involved with anyone at the moment.
I will hopefully be in a relationship next month.
I need a new ringtone.
I live in a major city.
My job is within walking distance of where I live.
I often wear red.
Marble notebooks annoy me.
So does my weight.
I can't sit still right now.
I'm so bored, I could cry.
But I won't lol.
The weather was really nice today.
Okay, this surveys is too longg.
I hate being in a bad mood & being stuck at home.
I love blueberries.

Hi, im new to Leftville

Okay, so i remember all throughout high school being bored in classes and passing time by writing with my left hand and doing everything with my left hand out of curiosity.. But, now since im really stuck and forced to become left handed for awhile until full movement returns and pain fades, is becoming quite the task. Im so used to using my right hand obviously but am painfully reminded that it is out of use for at least minimally a month. An needlessly to say, what if full movement doesn't return and im left with the weakness and numbness i have now.. Ugh, what the frick dude! No ones fault but mine, but i have no idea what made me do it, how when i keep everything locked in my make-up box, or even how when i was barely conscious or lucid did i manage to make my way to my box, find the keys which is kept in a different place on my desk in a basket, then go and unlock my box, go to the bottom, an make my way back to the bathroom and engage in the behavior.. or even find my first aid kit which has been closed for almost a year to get that and bandage and wrap everything.. i dont even know.. i guess its just muscle memory for when i was so used to doing it. Kinda scary... i dont know..  but now im left, left handed. Doctors say my tendon has a high risk chance of snapping in the future, but as for now it will cause pain and numbness throughout the surrounding area and some generalized weakness. :[ Flexor tendon damage sucks.

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Thursday, December 27, 2012

14 Blue Stitches

Okay, so last night.. a total blur! i do not remember anything major! Ugh, i remember having a panic attack and passing out not directly after but sometime in that night. I also remember getting really sick and vomiting and waking up on my bathroom floor. I was downstairs and on the couch until my mom was telling me to go to the sink. I threw up in the sink, after that i dont remember. Nor do i remember the most vital information missing which was when did i post on my websites and when did i even cut? got home around 6ish an the mom said i was in bed by 1140pm, in that 5 hour period, i dont even know what the hell happened... i cant type anymore because my tendon is hurting ...

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