Identity Collision

Head-on collision
with my personality
between me and you
there's bound to be a fatality

You put up a good fight
and were both headstrong
You may be winning now
But it won't be for long

I'm down for the count
But hunny I'm not out
I'm struggling against my thoughts
I'm fighting against self-doubt

You are smooth with your words
As I'm entranced by each lie
Effortlessly, you dance mirages around me
You hardly even try

Enslaved under your control
Hanging off your every word
No one else could hear me screaming
It was only you who heard

It's a love and hate relationship
A life or death situation
It's a compulsive obsession
You're my deadly fixation

Head on collision
Between my identity and a mask
We were polar opposites
That fit together like alcohol in a flask

I was the container
You are the poison within
I am a person
You are the sin

You damaged me inside
Your killing my soul
I still don't know why
I hold onto you though

Maybe I'm afraid
Of what there will be
If I stripped off the mask
And saw the real me

What if there was nothing left
Of the me I was fighting to be
What if I hated
What stood before my eyes to see

Head on collision
Lets just say I won
Would that be the end of you
Or was this practice round just for fun?

By: Essence Evans
Copyrighted 2013