Welcome To NEDA Month, More specifically Feeding Tube Awareness Week

 

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National Eating Disorders Awareness Month!

First off, welcome to NEDA Month! (National Eating Disorders Awareness)

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Now, Welcome to Feeding Tube Awareness Week of 2023!

There’s many resasons to where a person might require the assistance of a feeding tube. I can not attest to every reason why; only my own experience and knowledge of them as an EMT. Everyone’s story is different of why they’ve acquired the need of them, i do not speak for all. 

There’s different placements of that feeding tube as well. If you’re suffering from SMAS, Gastroparesis, Eating Disorders, Anatomic Abnormalities or Dysphagia etc. I wont go too in depth of the medical and anatomy of things, ill give some basic information and leave some for you to research and look up on your own. Or feel free to privately message me if you want more info. Some are temporary (NG & NJ) and the others are more long term permenant (G-tubes). Placements can include NG (Naso-Gastric), NJ (Naso-Jejunum), which are the less invasive ways; and then G-tube (Gastronomy), GJ (Gastric Jejunum). The G-tube can be placed 3 different ways: surgically through a small incisions using a laparoscope, surgically using a larger incision, or endoscopically using a scope into the stomach to create the stoma from the inside (these are usually PEG tubes) . 

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(My Pictures at the end of my post show the PEG tube, G-tube placements)

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I have had NG tubes and Gtubes, more specifically PEG tubes which means they surgicallly had to cut the my stomach muscles creating the stoma to place the tube. 

TAKING CARE OF THE TUBE PLACEMENT SITE IS VITAL!!! 

Keeping your dressings CLEAN, DRY, and STERILE is so pertinent because your at such a high risk of getting an infection at the site because its literally an open wound and open access into your body for bacteria and viruses! I know on amazon a ton us “tubies” would order cute little gtube pad coverings that would easy the pressure of the plastic leaning into our skin and helping with the secretions. They come in many different character decorations or designs 

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There’s an example, but yeah. Also, as painful as it sounds just like a ear piercing the G-tube needs to be spun daily, yeah i know, FML! Then, you’re probably wondering what happens after you’re done feeding or probably first how to do the feeds and such and such. You can get a machine to set to do you feeds like i said im not going to get to technical in this post im going to keep it basic, but there’s machines we can hook up at home to our IV poles ( yes, we get our own IV poles! We name and decorate them, too!) Or you can do it manually and have essentially this big syringe (without the needle part) and plunge it through the tube that way! I’ve had both. With the NG tubes ive had the machine with the G-tubes i’ve had the syringe and was more in control of how often i fed myself and how much. Where do you get the feeds? It’s liquid nutrition depending on what your body can process/digest and if its through your stomach or jejunum; Kate Farms, Ensure, Boost, blah blah, etc. its usually managed by a dietician and covered by your insurance and has to be stored properly out of sunlight, refrigerated, sterile place and stuff. It has to be properly set up to. 

FLUSHING YOUR TUBE! 

VITAL! VITAL! VITAL! you can actually get mold in there if its not flushed properly or it can clog!! Flushing is basically just another word for cleaning it out which is basically just pushing water through it before and after feeds, when you wake up and after medicine pushes (if you dont have separate tubings for it) Like i said not getting too technincal. Having A feeding tube requires a lot of up-keep and care and is not something to neglect. For NG & NJ tubes you have to change them quite often and you can change them yourself and its pretty easy, as it is also pretty easy to throw them up as well and misplace if you dont do it correctly you cant feel very bloated and nauseous. So if you’re struggling with purging an NG/NJ tube isn’t really the route to go.. Although as painful as it sounds it is quite easy to accidentally pull out a g-tube.

HEALING

It takes (well for me) after surgery 2 weeks for the pain to subside, pain meds are given Percocets, Hydrocodone, whatever. I was given those but didnt take them because they didnt help, and i have a high pain tolerance and my psychotic ass enjoyed being sore and in pain. After around 2–3 weeks i was able to lay on my stomach accidentally yank it, or get it stuck/caught around things in my room or house while walking ( i still wore half shirts & tube tops.) i wasnt phased at all. Just keeping your dressing changed OFTEN, CLEAN, and DRY is key! 

REMOVAL!!

The G-tubes, they just yank the bitch out!! IM NOT LYING!!! HAHA!! i wish i fucking was.. They dont put you to sleep, they dont warn you on 3, they just tell you dont eat for 24 hours so its not a messy pull! 

AND 

OH 

MY

GOSSHH!

The SENSATION is the most indescribable feeling ever!! Each time i can NEVER fucking prepare for that bitch! Its not painful it’s like a nauseating pressure then, pressure release like an exhale,uhm, i dont fucking know but i yell “FUCK shit” every, single time! Every, damn time. Then the fact the my G.I. doctor wanted to let a new med student practice on me on taking it out, and me being an EMT student once before and having to work at Moreno Valley hospital and be trained, i guess karma was coming full fucking circle. I was hella up to it, i didnt mind helping student watch or learn but my g.i. doctor kept telling him to do it in one pull! It it kinda looked like this nervous mofo was pissin his pants. Nah, he did it one try (thank gosh, it was my 3rd G-tube anyway) It still felt weird as fuck! 

MY STORY/REASONS WHY I UTILIZE FEEDING TUBES:

I struggle with Anorexia Nervosa and ARFID and have since the age of 8 years old i was diagnosed with Gastroparesis at the age of 19, and due to my OCD, AFRID and severe Anxiety and Panic Disorder i developed dysphagia at the age of 16 when i choked on carrots while in Eating Disorder treatment and then proceed to aspirate them and have an asthma attack. To this day i dont eat carrots and wont touch them with a 10-ft pole in fear of i will choke on them and die. I’m not allergic i’m just deathly afraid of them.. I wont cook with them either.

Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID) is a new diagnosis in the DSM-5, and was previously referred to as “Selective Eating Disorder.” ARFID is similar to anorexia in that both disorders involve limitations in the amount and/or types of food consumed, but unlike anorexia, ARFID does not involve any distress about body shape or size, or fears of fatness.

Although many children go through phases of picky or selective eating, a person with ARFID does not consume enough calories to grow and develop properly and, in adults, to maintain basic body function.

Types of ARFID

1. Lack of interest: clients with this type of ARFID have a genuine lack of interest in eating and food. They also get full quickly.
2. Sensory Avoidance: clients with sensory avoidance have issues with food tastes, textures, temperature and smells.
3. Fear of Aversive Consequences; fear of illness, choking, nausea and allergies

Dysphagia is difficulty swallowing — taking more time and effort to move food or liquid from your mouth to your stomach. Dysphagia can be painful. In some cases, swallowing is impossible. Ive had dye testing/swallow testing done to where it shows my muscle would spasm or sometimes not respond at all if im highly anxious or on edge.

Gastroparesis is a condition that affects the normal spontaneous movement of the muscles (motility) in your stomach. Ordinarily, strong muscular contractions propel food through your digestive tract. But if you have gastroparesis, your stomach’s motility is slowed down or doesn’t work at all, preventing your stomach from emptying properly. In my case, part of my stomach is paralyzed since i used to use bottles of ipecac syrup to induce vomiting, along diet pills, laxatives, and i would OD on handfuls of my psych meds at a time. My stomach lining couldn’t take all the acid and accrued many gastric ulcers until i was finally diagnosed.

An Anorexia, which im sure most of my readers are well aware of what that is and my struggle with not eating and restricting my food intake including my liquid intake. I was forced into hospital and placed on a NG tube for not eating solid food for 17 days. Or when I was hospitalized in Loma Linda mental hospital when i didn’t drink water (or any drop of liquid) for 9 days and got sent to the hospital and found out i had damaged my left kidney and it was only functioning at 73%. 

Due to these comorbid health and psych conditions my body is always at greater risk and chance of needing the help of a feeding tube. There’s no shame in it and Feeding tubes has helped a ton of my friends and friends babies' live and to continue to have fulfilling, joyous, and functional lives just as any other person! If the tube is noticeable or unnoticeable it doesn’t matter.

Your worth is immeasurable.

Love and Support,

Eves ❤

Ill Show You That Im Not Nothing

May14th, 2018 I left Montecatini In a way thatI I experienced it as a devastatingly traumatic event of compiled moments; as that clock ticked so loudly I felt it in my heart as it shown my time expired or expiring. I had to make a decision that I, myself felt the inability to decide with the mental state and emotional instabilities currently happening. Felt alone, terrified, with PTSD fear -based of feeling of being re-abandoned and yet another center/treatment people are giving up on me; calling it quits.

[ As verbatim one said, there’s nothing more I can do to help you with or to try when you’re unresponsive to certain methods suggested, with intense behaviors that you have it wasn’t enough and she felt like couldn’t treat me anymore, our sessions became stagnant and she felt id benefit more in my sessions with a different person. ]

 On the daily, i woke up in beast mode as ED and i constantly battle but it doesnt sleep; thrown to the front lines on daily I unequipped in every way. ◦ depending what EDwas triggering me with was then how i chose my weapon to battle. There’s plenty enough days where i felt like giving up and just didint give a shit anymore. it was just to much to deal with, but atleast i showed up. It was all i had in me to do; instead of considering the option to quit. So in no way was my AMA from even a hint that i was choosing quit on everything and therapy there. Honestly, it was simply because my ride arrived and i would feel horrible to send my ride all the way back, for a longer stay but still stuck at the same impass and crossroad. i was already afraid of leaving because i felt i wasnt ready as i was restricting still pretty often towards the end. Not only that but terrified that my transition back to PHP wasnt already set up and might not go through. Many things had me panicking and still do but i really wanted more than anything, to start going back to school and working as an EMT. i just plain missed life, working and i dont i cant really explain it. it was like my life was passing me byand i cuoldnt do anyhting about because i was too busy dying, believing i was surviving and saving myself.

On Tuesday when my ride showed up to pick me up (due to a miscommunication) ◦ When I was notified about it every fiber in my body threatened to unravel; quivering my bones that threatened the very foundation of me standing… I didn’t know what to do or what you choose, I was scared terrified, I was frozen I just stood did there. Voices going back-and-forth in my head when trying to envision both future outcomes. I just couldn’t handle it and was impulsive but chose what felt safest and where I was living with someone I felt supported by and trusted. ◦ I had been planning on leaving because at first they were planning my discharge for the before Wednesday which was May 9th 2018, since I didn’t think going to Rebecca’s House was what i felt i needed or was best for me .. 

It for several reasons 1) was because I have been I treatment literally for a YEAR & 4 MONTHS STRAIGHT!! I’m like gone through every level and back up! I believe I’m ready to do my best, especially after this amazingly blessed, supportive and out of this world helpful staff stay at Montecatini for the 2nd time! This is what they helped me with and what I learned personally about myself in attributes: ALL MONTE STAFF WHOLE-HEARTEDLY compassionately, honestly with out hesitation were so selfless, demonstrating, proving, reiterating, supportingand completely save my life and helped to my life around and strives to get it back and have goals, dreams, aspirations again! As well as find the the ambition, self-esteem, pride, passion for living fully authentically me loving each moment. confidence, belief in my self, to use my voice to reach out asking support, needing help or crying isn’t weak, I’m ALLOWED TO FEEL MY FEEL, HAVE THEM, and EXPRESS THEM in a healthy appropriate manner; i could slowly learn to feel alive once more instead constant fear, exhaustion, terror of exploding the cover off my concealment where all my emotions were locked away. I had on forbidden feelings emotions along with NEVER SHOW PAIN & NEVER NEED HELP! Especially learnesd from one staff member in partiular that i love; that im to care about me, that it’s okay to put me first.

It was so hard leaving, i had gotten so close with my peers and staff that it was just heartbreaking and sometimes still i cry for missing my M1 housemates, for the staff and the staff the had quit during my stay there that hit me hard. 

The staff i truly love and im glad your my Monnte Fam and support when needed i still cry at times when i remember you all. I hate goodbyes an leaving treatment centers because of the deep bonds created My therapist was beyond amazing and i was so glad i was matched with her and we bonded well together and im glad shes allowing me to keep in contact with her. My gosh my eyes are watering just typing this. My Dietician was extraordinary as well which i already knew since i had her the first time i was there back in 2016. Many of the staff i knew back then were still there and which i was surprised at who still remained. I wrote a list of all the staff i knew throughtout my stay back then and i actually found the paper!! SO im going to do it agin, just in case i want to write them. Well thats it for now. im not sure how often ill post but i will get back to you on that!

Essence Evans(Eves)

The Day I Choose To Leave Myself Behind (Late post 6/16/17)

I’m coming to terms that my mask needs to come off because I have all you fooled! Outside I’m lively, laughing, outgoing, strong and persevering; when on the inside I’m destroyed, weak, dead, numb, and lost in this inner turmoil. Struggling just to live each day, deciding each day not to harm myself, or if I’m going to eat or not. Each day if I going to continue to exist to chase my dreams and ambitions to make a difference. I’ve grown numb to the pain inside that I’m able to still have the show go on, and have none of you even question; if I’m ever okay..

I’m not okay, and I tried of acting like I am..

On, June 12th, I was not transitioning well at, i was still severely missing being in treatment and having so many regrets and wondering if i made the right decision and over analyzing. I was so devastated, painfully devastated, to where i was thrown into this deep, rock bottom depressive state. Blind sighted, its wave washed over me; washing away all my happiness, hope, dreams and ambitions. i was was crying hardcore no stop, i mean it! i couldnt stop, i cried for hours in my bed, i cried, i couldn’t go downstairs and show my face at all so i did’t eat. Then i started having an intense panic attack, i couldnt breathe, i couldnt stop crying, all i envisioned were the bad memories replaying in my head and it didnt help that i was in the same house that it was happening in and the person, that i couldn’t find any strength within me to stop it; reassuring myself that im safe inside my room. As every single memory broke my heart. Every single person, i had a certain type a “Trusting” connection (Therapists, Dietitians, All Past ED Treatment Centers’ 01 ecause i feel it rush throughout my body, and i can’t really pinpoint why, but it felt like thunder vibrating my body. To this day, i still cant handle that heart breaking moment, ever so slightly tearing at your soul from our”goodbyes” that we exchanged; as they all only leave me with memories of how they changed my life.

Thats when my mood shifted, i had stopped crying and i was on my phone going through Instagram, completely numbed out. Then i remember this one picture in particular that i saw, it said something about ‘ never giving up taking it one day at a time and happy days are coming” something like that. All i can remember was how much that stupid picture infuriated me. How i wanted to repost it with a rant caption, because that day; i wasnt feeling like that, so it pissed me off. At that moment currently, i wanted to be not okay.. So many quotes and things telling you it’s all going to be alright, and not to feel sad, but why not? How come I’m not allowed to feel other emotions just because they have some negative connotation to them or not accepted by others to feel sad, depressed, suicidal, and just plain not okay..

I had called Reasons with the intention of asking the staff for help, D answered, all I could do was. Cry as I told her nothing is alright and trying to clue her in. D asked me what was my reason for calling and if I was feeling safe I didn’t answer and just cried.!after she said she had to go and to go utilize my other resources. I felt discouraged, hurt, disregarded. It’s. okay, D is not a mind reader or a therapist/counselor; just a MHW.

I wasn’t okay, and that what I was assured of when I overdosed, by trying to take meds and bathroom cleaner. I was okay with choosing to give up and leave myself that day, leave everything that day. That day it became an option that was able I be selected and that I no longer questioned because my pain and suffering heavily out weighed the regret and wanted that freedom from from the hell on earth. So to getaway was to leave earth. I’m so over all this bad luck, and then I didn’t ant to hear another keep your head up, as you try to look at me like you understand, but you don’t know. So, just let me give up. (I’m down 19lbs already)

In that day I wanted to stop trying. That day, I stopped fighting.

I chose to leave myself…

EscapingTheCage

4 days discharged from Reason

Update:

So, on my blogs im going to be %100 truthful and brutally honest and not lie to myself and think that everything is okay and lie to myself when things really aren’t. They second i got home i weighed myself and i did not like number that i saw on the scale and i was completely disgusted. i wasnt at all shocked though because i felt it in my clothes, i felt it in my skin, and my mind was telling me that i had gained and unacceptable and disappointing amount of weight and i never doubt it for a second. Although, as i tried to adhere to my eating schedule the Reasons Residential has set; it was quickly shot done by the new rules that i had to abide and that totally cancelled out my HS snack because i was not allowed to eat after to 6pm the kitchen was closed at that times and i had to start cooking my dinner at 1600hr (4pm) and be eating it at 1700hrs. It was ridiculous my lunch hour was pretty much the only thing that stayed the same and my breakfast was the same. I was given no time to transition and i even asked for the time as i was woken up at 0600 to dragged on an exercise expedition that i didnt even ask to go on or had no prior commitment to going or knowing about but they said the it was in their routine and all of a sudden i had to fall in to their “ routine” and i didnt even get to create my own or even get time to transition and even unpack. So, making me do 3 miles, not to mention then also making comments that is i continue to do walks like this that i can tone up and wont have to feel as bad about myself. Of course, as soon as i got home they commented on my body weight and how they like my weight better this way and how me being that skinny was gross and i looked to sickly. I immediately told her that i hated my body and that i missed that body weight and i wanted to lose 20lbs and i couldnt even fit any of my clothes now and i look horrible in anything that i wear now. She replied with the response i expected and assumed she would say, which was; oh, you like fine and you dont need to lose any weight just tone up with some weights and im down to lose 10lbs with you;”

That was because i told her i wanted to lose 10lbs so she said okay… uhm, like i just haven’t got out an eating disorder residential and inpatient facility for 6months with beginners kidney damage.. its just like she doesnt get it or comprehend the fact of my eating disorder and its complication and severeness. My Anorexia will take any loop hole it can take to try to get away with things especially with trying to not eat and and to lose weight.

So, here’s where the confessions come in at. The first day i purged. i was late for lunch because i was i still driving up home.

Confession 2 i started diet pills and laxatives again i found my stash again. Im just so desperate to lose weight and get back to a weight thats acceptable and that wont trigger me every fucking time i take a shower, get dress, look in a damn mirror, or see myself in a damn picture.

Confession 3: i returned back into my over-exercising phase again. I glad woke up with my parents in the morning at 0600hrs to actually do the 3miles hell, why not. Then after i did a 30min session of yoga a 10 session of stretching for a cool down. Today June 9, 2017 i did 11miles. Yeah i walked to my friends house instead of taking the bus just for the exercise it took about 3hrs to get there in about 83 to 85 degree weather and i got my runners and high. i honestly loved it while i kept disassociating in out almost the whole time; imagine different fucking scenarios in my head, fucking flashbacks, shitty stuff, wishing i would of stay at Reasons and about how fucked up my life is about to become going this another relapse.. Fuck and i dont even have a therapist yet and my psychiatrist is in the process; orientation is next friday June 16th and 1400hrs. S so hopefully can switch my psychiatrist to someone else other than doctor Chahal.

Confession 4: I only bought diet food and now dinners foods on purpose because i was planning on not eating dinner. I tried and did avoid eating with them so i can say that i ate when i really didnt or just restrict a little. So, i ended i stopped eating and i dont even the protein bars that i even bought but i will be utilizing them later.

Confession 5 i have lost 10 lbs already relapsing and doing my unhealthy behaviors. Apart of me wants to feel guilty but the ED part of me is so proud and just so addicted to the losing a weight and just encouraging me to stay on track and keep going. Im just ambivalent and just once again stuck at a crossroad that i thought that i had made a decision and chosen a direction already. Truth is, i dont know what i want and i pretend that i do, i pretend that in all put together, i know what i want, and i got my goals and dreams in mind to achieve; but holy fuck i am a wreck and i just want to break down!!!! im tired of being the strong one around here taking care of everyone else which dont take it the wrong one i care for everyone and i dont mind giving advice and being there for them. It just that i feel like i have no support so i turn to my eating disorder which i personified as a female named; Promise. Promise is the one i always turn to for support and thats acting in all the negating behaviors leading to, well you know what…

Confession 6 This is the most challenging, heart breaking, and disappointing things to confess and admit. I really dont want to type this right now. Please, just DM message me because theirs is alot of people who still dont know about this.

Okay, that is all for now ill try to keep updating daily. Sorry i didnt update for the few day i was getting settled in. Pray for me, as i am currently relapsed and fighting for recovery..

EscapingTheCage (Essence)

Identity Collision

Head-on collision
with my personality
between me and you
there's bound to be a fatality

You put up a good fight
and were both headstrong
You may be winning now
But it won't be for long

I'm down for the count
But hunny I'm not out
I'm struggling against my thoughts
I'm fighting against self-doubt

You are smooth with your words
As I'm entranced by each lie
Effortlessly, you dance mirages around me
You hardly even try

Enslaved under your control
Hanging off your every word
No one else could hear me screaming
It was only you who heard

It's a love and hate relationship
A life or death situation
It's a compulsive obsession
You're my deadly fixation

Head on collision
Between my identity and a mask
We were polar opposites
That fit together like alcohol in a flask

I was the container
You are the poison within
I am a person
You are the sin

You damaged me inside
Your killing my soul
I still don't know why
I hold onto you though

Maybe I'm afraid
Of what there will be
If I stripped off the mask
And saw the real me

What if there was nothing left
Of the me I was fighting to be
What if I hated
What stood before my eyes to see

Head on collision
Lets just say I won
Would that be the end of you
Or was this practice round just for fun?

By: Essence Evans
Copyrighted 2013

3 Strikes, you're out!

I got my stitches out. Personally, educational wise, life skills wise, and just plain in general growing myself into the adult i needed to become almost 3 years ago and going great, on the other hand, my social life, and service life and failing horribly! I never felt so alone and feel like so many people hate me. It literally bugs the shit outta me because i cant handle all that negative energy around me. Unfortunately, i like absorb in into self-loathing, because i can never hate anyone and hurt someone in that type of manner... i dont know why its easier to hurt myself.. Youth Group leadership is spiraling down the drain nobody's aware but a few others and a few other students who already stopped coming for that reason. Due to other things and my dance classes which i was planning on taking this beginning year but couldnt decide if i wanted to dance or do leadership has been decided. Im choosing to take a minor step down in Leadership and finally do things for myself! Im so hyper focused on helping other and never saying no that i've been neglecting myself.. Things fall apart so better things can fall together! This is the beginning of my life and career. Ive been accepted into Cal Baptist University and into my 2 year Psychology Program for my BA. I cant mess this up and wont! I start in March. More details once i finish talking to my counselor. But, i'll be there ever now and then at YG but im gonna focus on my dance and my job. Oh, i got a new job since Bath&Body Works seasonal is ending and its back at Sonic in Murrieta full time..  and finally my iphone 4s white.. If God ever calls me back as a full time leader again then okay, but as of now.. i dont think i want to be surrounded by all the negativity. im gonna miss a ton of people though..

i just hate this lonely feeling i have and i feel that ive lost a lot of friends or maybe it might have been that they werent really my friends in the first place but i dont and im okay with it..  Well im hella tired and i wasnt even suppose to blog today.. the hospital took forever!!

Aw, Survey's like back in HS

Underline The Following of Which Relates To You

I've been arrested before.
I enjoy macaroni & cheese.
I don't like writing in blue ink.
I smoke camel crushes.
I think smoking cigarettes is gross.
I can see a salt shaker from where i'm sitting.
I do/did well in school.
I can be easily distracted at times.
I like word searches better than crosswords.
No one in my house smokes.
One of my family members has a problem with alcohol.
I've done something really stupid lately.
I live for the weekends.
The shirt I wore today had the color green in it.
I still love my ex.
I can't stand my ex.
Me & my ex are still friends.
My senior year was a breeze.
My boyfriend is taller than 5'9.
I always go for older guys.
but not that much older.
I recently ate at the olive garden.
I shop at payless.
I love drinking milk.
I shop at delias.
I buy clothes from sears too.
I've never eaten at the cheesecake factory.
Money on my mind...
Someone recently asked me out.
I rejected them.
I accepted... aww. =]
I don't eat many fried foods.
My itunes is currently open.
I wish I were older.
The legal drinking age where I live is 18.
I hate when people press the fuck you button on the phone.
I saw sex & the city 2.
I have really bad allergies.
What's a beat without bass?
V8 juice is yummy.
I have a blackberry.
I'm not on a laptop right now.
I'm currently waiting for someone to text me back.
They're taking forever.
I'm not on a diet right now.
But I should be.
I think about my boyfriend all the time.
Being single sucks.
It's tough being as cool as me.
I hate when people stare for soo long like wtf.
I wanna travel the world one day.
I know someone who is a professional body builder.
Sharks scare the hell out of me.
Deep water scares me too.
Speaking of water, I love water parks.
I had a cinnamon raisin bagel today.
I hate when a relationship ends & all of a sudden your ex seems ten times more attractive than they ever were.
I currently have weed on me.
or some other drug that i'd rather not reveal.
I've kissed an ex after we broke up.
I pay the insurance on my car.
Buying gas annoys me.
I recently got my taxes.
I can't wait for the 4th of july.
I've done a keg stand before.
I don't even know what that is.
I've slept with more than 4 people.
My house is creepy at night.
I'm not romantically involved with anyone at the moment.
I will hopefully be in a relationship next month.
I need a new ringtone.
I live in a major city.
My job is within walking distance of where I live.
I often wear red.
Marble notebooks annoy me.
So does my weight.
I can't sit still right now.
I'm so bored, I could cry.
But I won't lol.
The weather was really nice today.
Okay, this surveys is too longg.
I hate being in a bad mood & being stuck at home.
I love blueberries.